Notebook trap

I realized today,

that these little notebooks I carry around to write fleeting thoughts and to-dos to do later in,

have actually been a kind of trap for me…

You see,

I jot everything down, so much stuff, most of it junk,

but I rarely do anything with what’s written.

Even my to-dos, they just sit on those little pages collecting dust,

or honestly, getting written and doodled over by other nonsense lmao.

But anyways, as I opened my calendar app today while practicing,

I realized, I gotta put stuff in the calendar if I want to get it done!
Like it’s so effing obvious, but I was so blind to this fact.

If you want to do something: you need to schedule time to do it.

So what I’m doing now, is keeping my calendar open on today’s date and having 1-3 priorities to do outside of practice. I can’t even doodle over these events lol, they just stare me back in the face when I would otherwise avoid them like the plague.

Anyways, maybe I should just get an agenda. Agendas make so much more sense now.